There is a notebook that I have been carrying with me for a while. This book is a simple note book. Hard cover. Bought from the supermarket for a dollar.

On the outside of the notebook I have placed a felt cover, bought from a craft market in Wellington. Its a smiple cross pattern, but it is special to me. It has a purpose and a reason.

In this notebook on the inside cover I have written the word “Gratitude”. This is my notebook that for a while (on and off) I was writing things that I felt grateful for that day. It could be anything. I wrote 3 things, either morning and night, sometimes both. Even if I had a bad day I wrote 3 things that I was grateful for. I wrote those 3 things morning and night.

I have over the past year have had the notebook with me. Here are some of the things that I have been grateful for.

23 March 2014

-writing the best material that I have at the moment into 5 minutes.

-Cleaning the house and having less things to worry about.

– Realising how long that I have been listening to podcasts and how much they have influenced my thinking.


24 March Morning

-The clean and organised house that I have made

-Getting to bed early and waking up at 6am

– Having completed writing my comedy yesterday


24 March Evening

-For Tim organising the dinner at my house after I said hey lets do one.

-For my knowledge of the busses. That its best to walk to the further bus stop than wait for one to come, maybe.

-That I have inspiring people and podcasts that make me want to live positively


25 March Morning

-For deciding on traveling and changing my situation

-Simpleness that I have made for myself

-The ability to be able to buy things online and get them shipped to my door


26 March Evening

-Knowing about fringe things and being able to keep on top of trends

-Calling mum and dad and listening to James, my Nephew.

-Having crazy ideas and taking action in interesting ways

-Having my laptop fixed.

-Games night. Being able to just turn up and play games

-Knowing that I acted childish and know that I need to be aware of when i’m like that .

-That I’m able to keep on the edge of things, on the fringe and find cool things.


27 March Morning

-That i’m not afraid to talk to the people from reddit wellington

-That my parents help me with flights and organising things

-The quietness and stillness at the apartment of being myself a lot


5 April evening

-That I can finally be honest with myself

-The great weather today

-The great music I listed to on pandora


6 April evening

-For finally talking to my dad about all the issues that I have with him

-For the quietness in my head now that all the anger is out

-For cleaning up the house and putting more stuff in the car


8 April Morning

-The feedback that I got from Nik-Bruce Smith and Adam Wright.

-The ease of getting on stage and bombing

-The automation of my base line operation that keeps things operating correctly.


13 April Evening

-Writing new jokes and working on old material on my chromebook

How short of a time has it been since I have been so positive and grateful. Noticing all the wonderful things that are happening around me.

In life, we are the mirrors of the world around us. Stop reflecting hate and anger on to the people who look to you for guidance and support. Instead however, be grateful and inspiring.

We are more powerful than we give ourselves credit for. If we just let ourselves be ok with being average then we might be able to become amazing.

Where in your life have you been too negative? Where are you not taking the advice that you have been giving to other people? Maybe now its time to start being positive again.

In review of the list I am able to notice where I could have been going wrong. Its not about being ok with just yourself its being ok at the world around you. There was no other way that you could do it. You need to both love yourself but more so love everything in the world around you. That includes your enemies. What ever they are and and whatever form they take. You need to adopt the fighting mentality, the warrior’s ethos (by steven pressfield), you turn and face your death, the creature that is chasing after you. Your mortality.

The mind adapts and converts to its purpose the obstacle to our acting. The impediment to action advances action. What stands in the way becomes the way – Marcus Aurelius

The thousands of different ways that you could go. The thousands of different things that you could do in life. Now you needed to chose to become world class in a very short amount of time.

This has been written over a few days. If it feels fragmented and clunky forgive me. Also, I’m average at editing.




Between doing and not doing

The emphasis of it all seems to be on the act itself. There is some weird thing that happens when you actually decide to do something. What changes?

Nothing. You have not done anything yet. Your mind has become so wrapped up in itself that you are now just thinking of all the doing you could be doing and instead do nothing.

What then, does it take to actually do? It takes accepting failure all the time. It takes going out there and knowing that you will die fighting. That you won’t ever make it and that’s OK because all your doing is making it easier for the next person that comes along.

We create off of the back of giants but are we not also to the ones who will be leap frogged off when our children grow up. We will be the inspirations of the next generation. They are the ones that are the people who are spotting the trends. The obvious conclusions that everyone else should have been seeing if they where actually looking.

It its by the process of doing that we learn. We do like a child would. They have no fear. They do not even care if they are doing it wrong. Its a game. Its all for fun. There is no purpose. All of a sudden, there is no performance anxiety that we as adults seem to put upon ourselves.

The act of doing frees our minds of the fear of failure. The fear of failure is just a repeating start cycle, without ever leading to action. It is an infinite loop. The brain identifies this as what it is, a problem and proceeds to tell the conscious part of the person that something is wrong. Why could they not do something about this error?

Not doing is so attractive that we think that its the end goal, the thing to achieve in life. That is why so many of us feel so empty. We have already got what we set out to achieve as soon as we start. There is nothing else that we can get if we do not want to do.

Choosing to do just do one thing makes you productive. You do not have 100 different conflicting things that you would rather be doing, which would force you into not doing. It is what you do that is more important that how you do it.

Doing the things that noone else will do

What happens when you throw yourself into the fire? What are the things that everyone runs away from doing because they are to hard or they reveal to much of yourself. For me it used to be stand up comedy. That was before I tried it and found out how easy it actually it. Maybe it comes naturally, I don’t know. Maybe I shouldn’t let my ego get the better of me, most likely.

I often find myself now offering to help whenever the opportunity arises. I have come to a point where if anyone asks for help then I say yes. I give my time away because what I gain from giving my time away is the experience and a chance to learn.

Look around you day to day. There are countless times that you could just do something nice that would benefit everyone around you. Often times we forget that just saying thank you is one of the biggest ways that we can help and inspire other people. You give someone a currency that they cannot earn or spend in any other way.

Its often hard to find the ways that you can help but once you start moving you will find a way to get there.

The ramblings of a deranged man in Melbourne

Wow its been a while.

How are you? Whats been happening in your life?

Good to hear. Look I would love to hear your story but this is just me writing. So I can’t.

Intro gag over. Whats been happening? Lot’s. Interviews, working, banks not giving me functional credit cards….

You know what. Lets just talk it out for a bit.

I will find a better way of doing that in the future. Its something different.

Having fun in Melbourne, Mark Christison